the real me

ive never been one for goodbyes, so here's to a new hello. here's to not caring cause were all gonna die anyways, am I right Nelson???

anyways, its good to finally meet the real you. now here's the real me.

if you really knew me, you would know im actually really shy

and you would know I cant count without using my fingers and the song is the only way I can recite the alphabet.

if you really knew me you would know I fall easy
and fail almost every math test ever taken
and I think I might have insomnia some nights

if you knew the real me you would know I have a dimple the size of Antarctica and a birthmark on my left leg that has bugged me my entire life

if you really knew me you would know I obsess over little things.

you would know that hugging is awkward and kissing is weird
and you would know that I bite my nails when im nervous
and nothing makes me more nervous than talking in front of people


if u really knew me you would know that my sister and I have been inseparable since birth yet i still don't want her to read my blog

and if you really knew me, you would know I sing along to every song


 you would know I get super awkward when other people cry
you would know I moved here cause my dad lost his job and we didn't have a house

so heres to the real me, the real us.

ive found myself here, finally arrived in paris, and im here to stay.


thanks to all of my fellow travelers for the comments and reassurance. and thanks to nelson for opening my eyes

yours truly,
Summer Smith